2012

Feb 7, 2012, My daughter Gave Birth to her 3rd child Damien Michael Colin Vianelli.

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Keith & I had begun planning our wedding. We collected alot of really nice things.

Staci Ogden, a close friend of ours, was helping me with gathering items. She purchased glasses, decorations, cards, the arch candles, and many other items.

 I met a really nice lady named Kristie on Listia that helped me with my jewelry, my bouquet, and my crown.

 Actually, I got a lot of great deals off that site, including my wedding gown. (I paid 2517 credits and the dress came with free shipping)

 We even received an engagement gift from my friend Jenny in Washington. She got us 100 1954 pennies for good luck :)

 I had everything pictured in my head. I even planned to make my own wedding cake.

 My oldest daughter Star and her husband joined Listia and sent me rose petals (In my colors) and a couple candles.

 A friend of mine Dana, purchased my table clothes:)and I bought extra roses from the dollar store.

 I even started making plans for wedding photos.

 We decided to save money, by making the decorations

 These are the items we used to create the master pieces

We made the hair piece for the mini bride, the barrettes for the younger girls, added ribbons to the glasses and candy dishes, and decorated 2 small candles as memorials for my mother and Keith's best friend.

It seemed like things were coming together.

THEN.....

Anyone who really knows keith and I knows that we were involved in an 'open" relationship. The idea was that we could see who ever we wanted as long as we were honest. When I met the man above, I was completely honest with Keith. He asked me if I was planning to leave him; I said no, and the next two times I met the man, Keith helped me get there.

The fact is, I was in love with keith, but he had become distant. He was seldom home and I craved attention. The whole situation started with a fabulous friendship. The man was easy to talk to. He shared alot of the same theories and ideas. And before long, I grew attached. Again, I wasn't going to leave Keith. I loved keith. But there was something about the man that I became attached to. 

Ok, so YES, I knew that this connection would end. I just didn't expect it to end so soon, or the way that it did...

September was a crazy month. I met "HIM" for the last time around September 4th. The following weekend my 12th grandchild Bailey was born.

                                       It was after that, that I found out that "HE" and I were over.

I was devastated. Not for the reasons that people thought. But, because I felt I had lost my best friend. No one understood. I had spent months talking more than 5 hours a day, to that man. He had become a very good friend. In a way, my best friend, and since I never really go any where, and Keith was gone so much, I felt completely alone.

That's about the time that Keith decided he was going to hold the open relationship against me. It didn't matter that he had agreed to the whole situation. It didn't matter that he had helped me see the man. All that he seen was his own delusional thoughts. He wouldn't listen... I begged... I pleaded. I even used the kids as a reason for him to come back... which he did once but left again shortly after. I was totally devastated! My depression worsened. I even almost sold my lovely dress. The photo to the right was taken so that I would have a tangible image to remember the dress by. I was going to sell it & the rest of the wedding stuff so that I could pay  bills.

Before I hung the dress out on the porch or listed it to sale, I told Keith what I planned to do. He said NO! Shortly after that he came home again.